My childhood days.

I can only recall when I was able to be aware of the world around was about 4 years old. My only playmate was my younger brother. He was, all because I was smaller than many around the kampung and there for slow in everything. Despite those handicaps, I still tag along the older children especially my sister, Ah Kin and a so call little uncle,Ah Wu Jai@ Cow Fu Jai. I never gets to play their games but was always being entertained by their games and fights!

Their favourite games were 'Police catch thief'(ping ping joke chak), 'big letter'(tai ji), hop scotch, catching with hop scotch(tiew pai pai),rounders(with stick or tennis ball), high jump, hide and seek, lotus when you will flourish(lean far lean far kei si hoi far), eagle catch small chicks, aeiou bangali love you, spider fighting, cricket fighting,marble,Mosaic,ice-cream stick,rubber band game, collecting cards and gaming starting with one two chose or latalilattampom to chose who go first or team.

When they are tried of their games , they starts to make wheels from can or can lids to race with it, make guns with wood and use a kind of seed and fruit as bullets, making Graham bell telephone and walk with it like heel shoes, kite, lantern, using fallen coconut leaves as transport, five stones using real stones or small hand made bean bag, walking stick and many.

When there is a harvest of rambutan it was real fun and excitement, climbing the jambu tree was fun and very save.

We will be having gotong-royong when someone needs help like digging a well, man-hole, building a house or renovations, cutting grass, gathering woods, or burning sampah was something. The older kids will get paid while the smaller will get to play only. Ha!Ha! Ha!

Many others interesting happening too like the morning markets, when someone is getting married,shifting, new born,funeral, going to school, holidays,Chinese new year, moon cake festival,some one quarrel, someone bought anything new and whew.... will be up date how we all reacted on all issues were fun.

I was born to change everyone's life!

I was born 42 years ago and it change every one's life and expectation.

Girl!
Why not a boy?!
They wanted a boy so much but I am not just a girl but another girl! My great grand mother,grand mother and many relative including my parents, I guess have these words in mouth and mind.

I think it was fated that way even before I was born. I have an older sister about 2 years older than me. Everyone was hoping I was a boy. Maybe my mom knew that she was carrying a (another)girl that why she didn't do much to nourish another baby girl that's was in her. Its nothing new,another girl.This is one of the reason I was born underweight. Boy, boy, boy, boy and boy. When I born, it dash every one's expectation and hope. Its another girl!

Mom has to accept the fact I was born tiny and weak. She has to spoon fed me cos I couldn't suckle, make sure I was staying warm cos i was too tiny, and so on...

Till today mom still do not say a word or describe what happened,fearing that I might turn against everyone or my family but deep in my heart I know the story very well enough.

I hold no revenge or ill feeling on anyone but hope that everyone that wanted a boy so much will learn, change their mind set and accept me.

At least I am proud that I am a girl and do not wish to continue these thoughts about raising girls or another girl is a burden or not profitable!!!

I love who I am and proud of being myself! Cheers!!!

I won and was born a winner..........